It’s not that you were not expecting a Change. You have been, for years. Even so, it must be admitted that you were not exactly “prepared”. Even when you know what’s coming, (and you hope it isn’t) you deny the possibility of it ever happening, and so you’re never quite sufficiently ready.
You knew it was bound to happen. Eventually. Eventually was so far away that, when it did happen, you were almost taken by surprise.
All these years you had scraped by, because you had fallen between the cracks and gone unnoticed.
Suddenly the Change you feared looms before you like a huge, dark, undecipherable shadow. All you want to do is turn tail and vanish. But running away is not an option.
The only way is forward.
A long dark tunnel appears. You don’t know how long it is going to take for you to emerge on the other side. Perhaps days. Perhaps years. Perhaps this lifetime.
You lived your life right, according to principles. According to morals. You held on to integrity. Honesty. You followed all the rules. If there is such a thing as Destiny, then maybe the tunnel will not be that long. Because you lived right. You can only hope.
You see clearly before you – how your own choices in the past have brought you here. If anyone is to blame, it is yourself. With the veil before your eyes that prevent you from seeing tomorrow, you did the best you could do. If one could see tomorrow, one’s choices may be different. But then, the tomorrow you foresaw would no longer exist.
In spite of your correct decisions, you were taken by surprise by the twists and turns of life.
There is nothing to do. Pause; and reflect. Are you making the best decision based on everything you know, at this moment? Then, open your eyes wide and step into the darkness. Your eyes will adjust. There will be a light at the end. (There has to be. If not, there is nothing you can do, anyway.) You can take that crucial step only by telling yourself that you did the best you could. Courage comes from that firm belief.
From there on, there is only one thing left to do.
You keep going.
One step at a time.
One step at a time.